I just realized it has been eleven days since my last post.
I’ve written a lot, but all of it is unfinished and dark. 😐
I’ve been mad in the last few weeks. Mad at myself mostly, but mad at other people too. And sad. And sort of desperate.
That last adjective motivated a very pathetic e-mail to my family and friends about my overwhelming need for their help.
It was extremely difficult for me to ask, but I did.
Today, my older brother kept the little boy for four hours so that the husband and I could have a date.
We saw Thor (very enjoyable and NOT in 3D, thank you very much), we ate a tasty, cheese-laden lunch at Chevy’s, and then we went to Extraordinary Desserts for some beverages and really huge chocolate stuff. Really. Huge.
My iced tea arrived with a little pitcher of sugar syrup and a bamboo skewer of berries topped with one fragrant, lovely pink rose petal. Damn, I love that place.
We had a good day. A long overdue, woulda-lost-my-mind-without-it, good day. Thank you, brother. You saved us.
Now, the husband is out front spreading some very pungent manure on our dying lawn. The little boy is “helping” daddy and I am here, trying not to lose the writer in myself to anger, fatigue, absence or anything else.
Yesterday, we went to the school to see our son receive an award for requesting help appropriately. The other kids were recognized for academic achievements, outstanding citizenship or perfect attendance, but we think our kid’s award is the best one of all. It confirms what we already knew, he has come a long, long way. 😀
That’s all I have to say today. Just enough to get back here.
See you tomorrow?
P.S. My crafty friend, Erin from Kansas, started an etsy shop.
Go see it here.
Clever girl, she sent me that link and I promptly bought a little drawer she upcycled with light blue paint and polka dot paper.
Kinda had to – I ♥ cheery little things.
Go, Erin! 😀 Go, Erin!